today i saw Dr. Chen and she told me that radiation therapy maybe the answer along with chemotherapy. my radiation will be for 3 weeks straight and i will be getting chemo once a week. I'll be getting a lower dose of chemo. Dr. Chen said based on the type of chemo i was already getting this treatment should be no problem. so i should get through this with no problem. after the treatment I'll be getting another PET scan to check for anything else that we've might have missed.
I'm so excited and extremely happy that this stupid nightmare is almost over!!!! i cant wait for my hair to grow back! i cant wait to just start my life again. cancer puts a hold on everything. it doesn't stop you from living your life but it does stop your day to day "normal" life. cancer just sucks in general and i cannot wait to put this behind me!
on another note... Michael Jackson's memorial was extremely moving and touching...Michael may you RIP. thank you for being the soundtrack of my childhood. thank you for your Thriller video because without it i don't think i would have eaten much as a child.=) My mom used to carry the thriller video everywhere and put it on so i could eat. my eyes would stay glued to the TV as Michael and all the monsters would dance around. my mouth would just drop open while my mom would feed me. thank you for your Bad album because without that i would not have been able to run around my house singing to your songs and putting on concerts for my stuff animals and to anyone that would listen to me. thank you for all your music videos because without them i don't think my mom would have anything to threaten me with to take my naps. she would tell me "Juana, you better go to sleep! Otherwise you're not gonna watch Michael on MTV!" thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! you will always be in my heart!
