GOOD NEWS!

I'm finally better enough to let all you know that my tumor is shrinking! Yep that's right...shrinking! i went in for round 7 of chemo this past Monday. i talked to my doctor to see if she had heard anything about my last CT scan. the last time i talked to her she said she couldn't tell if my tumor was smaller or bigger cause she had nothing to compare it too. i told her we had the old scans so she might be able to compare. we did that and the radiologist said my tumor is smaller! FINALLY i know where i stand!

they took out my pic line cause it wasn't working anymore. they had to poke me and put an IV in my hand so i can get my chemo. that was not fun at all! when they told me that they had to take out my PIC line i was scared that it might hurt cause they were gonna just pull it out! i was like oh heck no! BLOOD everywhere!!! but that was not the case =) no blood was spilled.

on another note...my hair looks like its growing back. i have some kind of fuzz so that's cool. my cousin Jr stopped by and wanted to see and he said i looked tough. hahaha i am pretty bad ass so yeah i gots to look the part if I'm gonna act the part!

CT results tomorrow

Tomorrow i get my results for last Thursdays CT results. I'm really scared... i don't feel any different. still have no pain, don't feel any worse, everything seems normal. i think that's what scares me the most. the fact that i feel fine scares the hell out of me. before all this crap started i felt fine! so i really don't know what to feel. I'm still keeping my head up and hope for the best but still. Dr. Chen thinks I'm doing great. with her thinking that i think maybe just maybe everything will be fine but I'm still skeptical. well i guess we'll find out tomorrow. keep your fingers cross!

bald, disneyland and a NEW CAR!

Hello! So i finally did it! i finally shaved my head this past weekend! No, i didn't have a breakdown like my girl Britney Spears. It was just time. Most of my hair was gone anyways so it needed to be done. I'm OK with it. it was weird at first seeing my head for the first time. CRAZY. but I'm OK. i don't look too bad with no hair, i mean i would love it if i had it but I'm OK without it for now. my sister and my dad had to help me out a little when i was cutting it off. i couldn't see the back of my head. my mom had a hard time with it. she was upset and felt bad about me having to go through this. i can understand. if i was a mom watching her daughter go through cancer i would be upset too.


on a happy note: WE'RE LEAVING FOR DISNEYLAND IN 2 DAYS!!! Yes folks we are going back to Disneyland for the the 3rd time in 4 months! LOL! We're crazy i know, but i love it so who cares! this time were talking the Disney gang with us. we leave on Thursday and come back on Sunday, so not too long. I'm really excited about this trip cause we made shirts for everyone! the girls and i thought it would be cool if all of us had a shirt with a ride on it. the shirts came out awesome! i cant wait to show you pictures. I'll be sure to update during the trip!


on another happy note: ROBERT AND I GOT A NEW CAR! we are now proud owners of a 2008 ford escape. its the family car. Robert and i don't have any kids so it'll be our little toy to play with for a while. in case you were wondering why we got a new one its cause Robert's mustang got into a little accident 2 Sundays ago. it was messed up and it couldn't be saved so that's where the new car came into play. Robert did an excellent job at wheeling and dealing at the dealership. i was very proud of my man! good job baby!

well that looks like that's all for now...I'll be updating during the trip!

chemo time baby!

getting chemo! my last one round until may! woot woot!

Finally! Good news as arrived!

hey friends! so guess what? it was doctor visit time. i finally was able to get some answers from my doctor today. she told me she thinks I'm doing great! she noticed that i wear my wig now, which i do wear everywhere i go now cause I've lost most of my hair. my head looks so nasty but what are ya going to do, right?! anyways...my doctor thinks my treatments are going absolutely fabulous! thank you God! the other night i was a little worried mainly because i had no idea what was going on with me. i hadn't cried so much since i was diagnosed. Now i feel like I'm actually getting somewhere with this cancer crap.

anyhow, my doctor thinks my next CT scan (April 2) will come out looking awesome! she is more than positive about that. i was SO happy to hear this. she checked out all my lymph nodes and she said everything looked fine. we asked her about whether i could possibly have surgery in the future and she said its not something she wants for me right now cause it might be too much for my body to handle. right now we are just concentrating on getting the tumor down to size. OH and the best part was that she thinks i might be very close to remission!!!!! isn't that awesome! I'm sooo happy with everything. i know I'm not out of the woods yet but i feel like things are actually going to get better for me! YAY!!! i get a second chance! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS AND HAPPY THOUGHTS! GOD LOVES ME! WOO HOO!

d23 is what?!

so the D23 hoopla is a magazine? wow i thought it might have been something cooler like i don't know something cooler! apparently this magazine is gonna be almost $16 bucks and it only comes out 4 times a year. that sucks! ah well i wanna get it either way so yeah.

Happy Birthday Mandy!

Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you!
You smell like a monkey!
And you look like one too!

Happy birthday Mandy! WOW you're finally 21 years old! Congratulations! you're in the big leagues now! Well lucky girl not only are you going to celebrate with your family and friends tonight you get to go to Tres next weekend AND head to Disneyland at the end of the month. You're birthday is pretty much all month long! I'm sorry i won't be able to be there next weekend. Chemo gets in the way of everything. I'm sure you'll have a great time anyways =) Happy birthday sister...hope you have a awesome one!