feelin' crappy, crappy, CRAPPY!

well if you haven't guessed already i feel crappy. so far this HAS to be the worst round. i totally feel like a huge ass truck hit me, went in reverse and ran me over once more. i don't know why I'm surprised every time i have a round of chemo that I'm gonna feel like this. i go through it every 3 weeks. i hate the way everything tastes and smells. I'm not sure if I'm crazy but i feel like i smell like chemo and everything taste like chemo. i know the taste is a metal taste but i cant really explain the smell.

i started on my new 5FU chemo this round. before i had the pump but now its the pills twice a day. I'm not to sure how i feel about them yet. i mean don't get me wrong i LOVE not having that pump connected to me all the time, its just I'm not sure if the new pills are the reason i feel worse this time. i hope not. i would hate to have to go back to the pump.

good news is in a few days I'll feel like myself again. hopefully the pills are not gonna make me feel bad. i cannot wait to go to Disneyland with Robert in 15 days! I'm ready for another vacation pronto! plus i think Robert and i deserve a little trip just the two of us.

I'm free! FREE AT LAST!

Today was a big day! I was officially taken off my pump today! My new doctor, Dr. May Chen, is now going to be giving me pills that i will be taking twice a day. We all think that this will be much more better then having the pump connected to me 24/7. By the way, in case you were wondering....that's not me in that picture above. i was gonna take a picture with the pump today BUT i forgot (another side effect of my chemo, forgetfulness). LOL i just googled this picture. =)

tomorrow i start round 4 at South Bay Oncology. I have mix feelings...I'm excited cause I'm gonna be starting there but at the same time I'm nervous! i know i just have to keep my chin up and stay positive but I'm only human. think good thoughts kids! updates soon...

Pinkberry! Everybody's doing it!

Have you tried this? The place is called Pinkberry and it just opened up at Santana Row this week! Apparently its all the rage with celebrities. They have them all over the place down in southern California and now we have one here!

i tried the green tea with fruity pebbles and that sucked. the green tea to me tasted like throw up. went back got another (pomegranate) and that was way better with captain crunch and fruity pebbles. yum!

tonight was there "grand opening" party. all the small size yogurt was free. you can imagine how packed it was. plus they even had a full out VIP (guest list only) tent party. they had a DJ, wine, pink instead or red carpet, the works! i thought it was pretty funny. made me think i should throw a yogurt party or cereal party, guest list and all!

What will you celebrate?

Disney 4-1-1 News flash! the new decorations are up at Disneyland! How exciting! This year Disneyland slogan is "what will you celebrate?" i felt like they were asking me and i thought....I'm gonna celebrate LIFE! My life with family and friends! this year is bobby's and mine's year of million trips! We already started this past December and are planning our next trip in February. I'm excited!!!!!! who else is????

A Beautiful Day To Be In Monterey

Today was just another beautiful in California! Bobby, Michael and I took a day trip over to Monterey Bay. I wish you all were there with us! The day started with an awesome lunch at Bubba Gump's. Michael said he was gonna go "Crazy" and order a tall boy beer and something hella expensive on the menu. And Bobby got a girly fruity drink with the scampi. Did you know that when you buy the speciality drinks there you can keep the cup? i didn't know that! Oh and i almost forgot about the drama that happened when we were trying to leave bubba's! So, it turns out that one of the boys forgot to leave there charge receipt (the merchant one) on the table. So as we are going about our way out and start our day our waiter hella with the quickness runs up to us like we didn't leave a tip or pay for our meals! "Excuse me! i can't find your receipt?!" Bobby went back to tell him that we left the receipts on the table while Michael and stood around and laughed. the people around us all looked at us like we were some kind of criminals! craziness! turns out the whole time it was Michael that tried to jack the receipts! LOL! But really the real question here is what would have happened if the waiter couldn't find the receipt and we were long gone? does the restaurant just not get paid or would they have put it all on bobby's card cause they only had that information??? Once all that craziness was over we marched on over the aquarium. Michael hadn't been since 1986 so he was over due for a re-visit. All the fishes were still there. The new splash zone was done! it was great to see my friends the penguins!This is also where we met our latest addition...Soy Bean all natural Lopez! He is our new plush penguin made completely with soy beans! i thought that was amazing! we needed it! here's a family portrait!

Once we were done with our day at Monterey we headed out to a nice drive down the 17 mile drive. The waves were crashing against those rocks! the coast has never looked at beautiful as it did today. Amazing is the only word i can use to describe it. It really made me feel at peace and without a care in the world when looking over the ocean. i can honestly say i didn't think about my cancer ONCE when i was there!

Our day didn't end there. we came back to San Jose to spend the evening playing mini golf. i lost as usual BUT i did do better then normal so that's a plus! Bobby and Michael had there own little "ass whoopin" competition going on. Michael won. the ass whoopin was givin to bobby. sorry babe maybe next time.

From Myspace to Google...

Sorry everyone for moving you all over to here. Blogging can be so exciting! Well it looks like this will be the place where i will blog about how I'm doing with my cancer adventures. i will post new blog posting on myspace so you all can visit. hope this doesn't confuse anyone. have a good night!