my memorial day weekend!

so my weekend was super busy! 2 graduations, an awesome day at Napa and a trip to the beach. many congrats goes to my girl Christine Ann Pingel and my cousin Alex Chavez. I'm so proud of you both!
Napa was BEAUTIFUL! we headed over to my aunts house and had a BBQ. after the BBQ Robert, my dad and my nino went to play golf while my tia, my mom, Mandy and myself went wine tasting. the first winery we went to is run by Walt Disney's daughter Diane Miller. that place is absolutely beautiful. its the same place they filmed soarin' over California. we also got to meet the man who helped open the winery at Disney's California Adventures. good knowledge! more Random facts i know about Disney!

From there we headed out to a castle winery just down the road. the man who built it spared NO expense! every rock that was use to build the castle was hand made! he didn't want his castle to look fake so everything was top of the line. we did a 1 1/2 hour tour of the place and at the end we did some wine tasting. we absolutely loved it!
and today Mandy, Jessica, kiwi and myself made our way to Seacliff state beach in Capitola. such a beautiful day. best beach day so far this year! we talked about our trip to Hawaii next year and plans for this upcoming Disneyland trip in June...should be fun! once we were done playing at the beach Jess and i headed to the mall where we had a shopping fail day. nothing really catched our eyes so not a very productive day at valley fair. maybe next time. oh yeah FUCK you old navy and your bullshit $1 flip-flops! why didn't you save any for me! FUCKERS...tis all...

break time is over, back to chemo

round 8 official started this past Monday. this time i felt a little more sick then normal so they upped my meds a bit. it made me feel really weird and then eventually i passed the fuck out. all i know is it made me feel sick when i got home. nasty! oh well...

this past weekend was my cousin's wedding. the ceremony was beautiful! actually everything was nice! I'm so happy for them both! Renee is officially my cousin-in-law! yay! as a gift to them Robert and i got them Disney dollars for there honeymoon and very cool extensive fun guide that i put together for them. i hope they have fun...what am i saying OF COURSE they will have fun! its Disneyland!

the following day, Sunday, we went to the giants and mets game with some friends. it was hella hot for being San Francisco, but once we got in our seats the temperature cooled off. giants won the game but sadly did not win the series. mets wanted it more. good job to both teams!

what will you celebrate?

MY LIFE! Congrats to me on my 6 month anniversary! 6 months ago on Nov 12, 2008 i was told i have cancer. i was told that without treatment i would have 6 months or so left to live. Crazy huh?! back then i wasn't sure how i would be but turns out 6 months later I'm still kicking ass and looking awesome! I'm so grateful that i don't look like shit and I've been doing so well. these past few months I've been to Disneyland 3 times, gone to a lot of giants and sharks games, went to Santa Cruz a thousand times, hung out with my bestest friends, and gone to fantastic family events! thank you for all your prayers and company. I've made up with friends that I've had conflicts with. most of that stuff was pointless and stupid. I'm kind of glad that i have cancer cause i think its made me a better person as a whole. it really puts things into perspective. i like to think I've come a long way. I've made new friends. some of them are fellow cancer peeps and nurses who are the most awesomest people ever. don't get me wrong getting cancer sucks and it was not on my to do list but you have to deal with whatever cards you're dealt with. I've made lemonade with the lemons life gave me. i hope i continue doing fabulous and with that i raise my cup of Starbucks to you cancer and say "Cancer, you are a bitch. fuck you and thanks for the good times! Cheers!"

Confused????

so today's chemo treatment was put off yet another week. turns out my blood count (white blood cells) was too low again! i don't understand! i mean i do understand but at the same time I'm just so confused???? Dr. Chen told me that the reason my counts were to low is because I've already had so many rounds of chemo that my bone marrow is really slow to make more white blood cells. she didn't look worried at all and thinks I'm doing really well. BUT STILL! i mean is that OK? do i have to take a break from chemo? WTF!? i just wanna get better. I'm sick of being SICK! i know I'm on my way but all this stuff, these little bumps confuse the hell out of me! I'M I REALLY GETTING BETTER? I'm feeling fine but my blood work says other wise. now i have to get more of those shots to keep my white cells up. i got one shot today and i have to come back tomorrow and Wednesday. Friday i go back and get my blood work done. Wendy, the nurse practitioner, will see me and tell me if I'm good to go on the following Monday for treatment. Dr. Chen did say that she is very amazed as to how well I'm doing with this many rounds of treatment. she said most people don't even make it through 2-3 rounds of this type of chemo. my mother-in-law said its cause I'm stubborn and i wont let the cancer get the best of me. i say its cause i say FUCK YOU CANCER and GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY BODY and P.S. i hate you. hahaha....

my cousin Alex's wedding is Saturday so i didn't wanna have chemo at the end of this week. i cant be sick on their wedding day! Alex is like a brother to me. i would be very upset if i missed it. i have a job to do that day. I'm the bubble passer expert! BUBBLES BUBBLES BUBBLES (*in the voice of that yellow tank fish in Finding Nemo*). oh well....hope you all had a fabulous Mother's Day!

getting my mediport!

Alright team I'm finally going under the knife! it's not anything huge like a full on surgery but it is a minor one. I'm getting a mediport put in for my chemo treatments. its kinda like what i used have in my arm but now its gonna be in my chest. i have to admit i am a little scared. I've never been through anything like this so the thought of something being put in my chest is crazy to me. but I've been reading up on it online and I've seen pictures of it so I'm not too worried about it anymore. i read peoples comments about their experiences and most of them said that its not big thang. most don't even remember the procedure. so this mediport is just another little bump in the road. i can deal.

so this mediport thing is gonna be hella better then the pic line was. no more dressing and stupid arm bands that gave me a bad tan line. LAME! the pictures of a mediport shows like a little bump in your chest but its nothing i cant hide with a cute ass tank top! well take care everyone and happy early mothers day everyone!This is a picture a a girl who got a mediport put in. the lines are just where they are gonna do radiation.